Freaking my Dream

Ever since I was a little girl,
I have dreamed of having everything in the world.
The thing that I wanted the most
was not to boast
but to have the opportunity to be a writer....
and think that the sun shone just a little brighter.
However the thing that terrified me
was attempting to write poetry
I always seemed to write something cheesy,
because the words just didn’t flow freely.
But as if by some miracle everything has changed
and the stars seem to have rearranged.
Normally I don’t believe in those kinds of things,
but there is an energy that the Beat Freaks bring.
They give me the strength to express myself,
and clean the dust off of my internal shelf.
I guess that seems kind of cheesy as well,
but as you should be able to tell,
this is who I am finally introducing myself to be,
This description of me is no longer false imagery.
I don’t really care whether you agree,
because I know in my heart that this is me.
I realized not only another of my passions,
but also I know that expression doesn't have to come in rations.
To truly be happy you need to follow your dream,
which is not always what it seems.
At first I thought that I wanted to dance,
but that was when I was in a trance...
although dancing is a lot of fun,
I know that it is not my true calling.
I only did it because the Beat Freaks had inspired me to try something new,
but I realize my talents in dance are few...
For my true dream is to be a poet,
and now I just have to show it.
My main problem was that I was shy,
but now I am willing to give it a try.
They say the first step is the hardest to take,
however it was one that I knew wasn't a mistake.
Ever since then I have written many a rhyme,
because whenever I have too much time,
I have the words spilling out,
for I am freaking my dream...without a doubt. :)

ANBGDT

As ANBGDT is had reached its end,
This was just one of many opportunities to celebrate with our friends.
Never before has it been just the girls,
But it’s a wonder that we survived all the struggles faced…
There were many bumps along the way,
Due to the hardships for the secret to stay…
Everyday that would pass by,
Had me hoping that a certain “guy”
That had claimed to be a man
Would not be ruining our plan…
Finally the day arrived,
And our spirits seemed to thrive.
The Joy that ANBGDT brought,
Was something that we had sought…
Without a doubt this was a very fun day,
It was the best of the month of May..
The Sixteenth was a special occasion,
That was successful due to the perfect equation.
It may seem weird to compare this day to math,
But our plan seemed to follow an invisible path.
The day went so great that I cannot believe
I just wish that we didn’t have to leave.
It all started with the ride called Space Mountain,
But the heat required that we find a water fountain.
We went on rides like Splash Mountain and “It’s a Small World”,
And the map that we had was barely unfurled.
We spent most of the time just hanging out,
Because we knew without a doubt…
That whatever we did would be fun
The only problem was the Sun.
We had a scavenger hunt to attempt,
In which no one was exempt.
Everyone participated to find the items on the list,
And although there was a lot that we missed,
I still was able to complete one task,
In which no one present would have to ask,
But for those who do not know,
When I finished the task I was aglow.
For In Front of the castle I did a freeze,
Then later we ate burgers…mine with bacon and cheese.
Our last ride as a group was Indiana Jones
In which there were many unknowns.
For the ride seems very frightening,
But for some it was very enlightening,
As they had never been on the ride.
Even I had been terrified.
I felt as if I could have died,
But now as I confide...My fears subside.
No matter how afraid I was,
The adventure was worth it.
Terry, Angela, Kristine, Jennifer,
Valerie, Samantha and I…
Had a happy time,
I feel like I am on cloud nine.
And now that ANBGDT has come to an end,
I hope that we have more time to spend.
And have another outing such as this
In which nothing ever goes amiss…

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My Inspiration: The Beat Freaks

With every dance move that I see
Just makes me feel proud to be,
One of many strong females in the world.
Times were rough way back when,
Because females were considered inferior to men.
Times have changed thanks to determined women
Who helped our country to develop from male domination.
Many days I feel like I don’t deserve it,
But I know now that it doesn’t matter how well you fit.
As your own person, you can be anything you want to be,
Which allows you to feel happy and free.
As equals in the society,
Your only worry is propriety.
As long as you are honest about who you are
It doesn’t matter; you will always be a star.
I have learned that through dance,
An impression can be made; even with just a quick glance.
Females from Japan and France,
As well as the United States,
Can become one of the greats
The success you gain is up to you,
All you need to do is follow through.
The Beat Freaks have taught me this,
Through their success in challenges.
They never gave up no matter how hard the task,
And now as I start to take off the mask,
That has covered me from reality for so long,
I am able to be more confident and strong.

Journey

Whenever I try to write about a happy time in my life
I feel as if it’s impossible,
As if I haven’t had good moments.
I know that it isn’t true,
But when I recall my life I haven’t a clue
Why must life be so difficult for me?
Is it really that hard to truly be?
Stress is such a constant torture,
My future rests in the balance of life and death
My internal struggles never are pleasant
And the depression is ever present.
There are sayings that you have to take the good with the bad,
But what if I gave everything that I had,
Just to survive this most recent encounter
And don’t think I could handle another.
But maybe there is a unique solution,
That will be an important attribution,
To who I will become in the future.
Everyday I attempt to dance,
In hopes that my skills will be greatly enhanced
So as I follow my own dreams,
I realize just one thing.
I have been so focused on myself,
So that I could prove myself to those around me
That I have lost sight of the true purpose
This is not just an experience for me,
As my friends and I embark on a lifelong journey…

Life: Another Poem

The Clock of life seems never ending.
When I just want to get away from it all,
Is when it’s at its slowest.
Never could I have imagined the pain that I feel
For it is too great to ever believe as real.
I realize that nothing is ever perfect,
But there’s never a day when I didn’t wish that life was.
Maybe it’s just me, but life almost seems too long
For the path I walk is lined with fog.
Everyone has seen the reality of who I am,
Yet at the same time, I am still a mystery.
It’s possible that I could be imagining everything,
I know there are people, who care about me,
But I wonder if it’s enough to fill the void that exists.
My only escape is through my friends and dance
For no one has ever really heard about my REAL life
Everything up until now has been a façade
Nothing was real.
I have masked my feelings for so long
That everything I feel just wants to flow out
Like a volcano ready to explode
My heart is ready to burst
I want to put my heart into this poem
So that one day I might actually feel good about myself,
For right now is not the best time in my life.
As I sit here I feel my emotions pouring out,
And although I am ready to just stop and cry,
I know that what I do will never satisfy.
Unless I finish all the way to the end,
And know that I will never look back again
To a time when the path I followed seemed too tough
As if I was gasping for breath with every step I took.
Now as I look back for this one final time,
There is just one message that I almost didn’t notice:
Listen to your heart and everything will be fine
Any journey you follow will have a sign.
This knowledge can be your motivation,
To help you to reach your destination.
If I hadn’t stopped to rethink my thoughts
I would never be where I am now nor where I will be in the future…

The Life that I Live

Everyday that I live seems to pass slowly by
As I walk through life wondering why.
My soul longs for freedom,
The ability to be alone with my thoughts,
But every waking moment takes me farther away
Like that of a cloud that never stays.
The Sun should shine bright as the cloud disappears
But for me I am just entrenched in darkness of fears.
Never will I be understood as just an ordinary person,
But compared to the perfection that is my sister.
I wish that a single moment could change everything for the better
However I know that it isn’t true
My family just doesn’t understand
The pain that surrounds me,
My survival is only a figment of their imagination,
No longer a soul, but a fake presentation,
Of who I really am.
Only my friends truly know me
Because with them I feel totally free,
Like that of a bird with the whole world to venture through
Without stopping to wonder what others think of you.
Now I realize as I see the words I’ve written,
Everything seems so much clearer.
As if the world wants to give me another chance
And let me live my dream and learn how to dance.
The ability to Freak my dream
Just makes me want to scream,
To show to the world my dedication,
Just as the Beat Freaks have been my inspiration.